wake up thoughts on 1st Jan 2015
The first thought
for the world, today is a beginning, for me today is almost an end.
This exactly is not a suicide note. But it may sound like one. I do not have complaints but I do have regrets. I could have done better in my life. well, this thought might have crossed everybody's mind at least once. this regret is huge. Half of my life is over and I still carry this regret means? Shame! But yes, now that I have decided something this should not bother me too much. I will not fill this note with my rubbish thoughts, since this is an important note. The reason why I am doing this is simple regret coupled with boredom. I want to live a better life, want to love more, want to put my best efforts in everything I do,want to chase away this regret BUT the problem is I am too lazy to do all these. Ultimately I question pops up in my head. Why should I do all these? What for? And since I cannot find a convincing answer I have dropped all my plans. sounds foolish but I have no problem in admitting that I am a fool. A person is missing in my life. And that's me. yes, I am here. But I am missing. A person in whom I can see myself is missing. I guess most of the people do not even realize it. Once upon a time, I thought our sole mission in life is to find out that person. A person who is you, who is me. Unfortunately, time has played some nasty game and this belief of mine nearly disappeared. What I did not know is a part of me also has disappeared with it. A part of me which was innocent, dreaming, devoted, true-blue.
Second Thought
when I was writing the first thought, even before I could complete, second thought emerged. This is simple, God appeared and told me that he has a plan for me. A plan for my life. Good or Bad I got to trust him/her and the PLAN. I was wonder-stuck, why because this was a moment which i dreamed of for so long. God giving hints, signs. after all he/she is supposed to do that. so I kept aside,my first thought and decided to wait for the plan. We all know, the desire to live just overpowers every other thought sometimes.
Bye, HAPPY 2015
The first thought
for the world, today is a beginning, for me today is almost an end.
This exactly is not a suicide note. But it may sound like one. I do not have complaints but I do have regrets. I could have done better in my life. well, this thought might have crossed everybody's mind at least once. this regret is huge. Half of my life is over and I still carry this regret means? Shame! But yes, now that I have decided something this should not bother me too much. I will not fill this note with my rubbish thoughts, since this is an important note. The reason why I am doing this is simple regret coupled with boredom. I want to live a better life, want to love more, want to put my best efforts in everything I do,want to chase away this regret BUT the problem is I am too lazy to do all these. Ultimately I question pops up in my head. Why should I do all these? What for? And since I cannot find a convincing answer I have dropped all my plans. sounds foolish but I have no problem in admitting that I am a fool. A person is missing in my life. And that's me. yes, I am here. But I am missing. A person in whom I can see myself is missing. I guess most of the people do not even realize it. Once upon a time, I thought our sole mission in life is to find out that person. A person who is you, who is me. Unfortunately, time has played some nasty game and this belief of mine nearly disappeared. What I did not know is a part of me also has disappeared with it. A part of me which was innocent, dreaming, devoted, true-blue.
Second Thought
when I was writing the first thought, even before I could complete, second thought emerged. This is simple, God appeared and told me that he has a plan for me. A plan for my life. Good or Bad I got to trust him/her and the PLAN. I was wonder-stuck, why because this was a moment which i dreamed of for so long. God giving hints, signs. after all he/she is supposed to do that. so I kept aside,my first thought and decided to wait for the plan. We all know, the desire to live just overpowers every other thought sometimes.
Bye, HAPPY 2015
life is what we think.. try to realize ourselves ,then we reached to the mail goal.. all the best
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